In the thick of emails, texts, app notifications and numerous spams my phone does 2 far-out beeps. Distracting me from the tabs opened I fetch for my phone to see a FB chat from one of my beloved guru, “Ping me ur whatsapp and calling number, its urgent”. Zapt! I go deep into the reverie.
I see college going red to blue like the rest of Kolkata (transition from CPM to TMC raj),
Initial days (when I got to know the actual meaning of the word “Intro”), Utkarsh & Kritanj – The only best thing that happened to me at Narula, college fests, friends, crushes, girlfriends, protests, fights, foes all of them on the displair like being on the sets of some sci-fi movie. Swiping them right I go scanning the whole feed at the rate of 268 mph. I am stuck at the last one, the strongest, and a gigantic one, so clear and vivid like not from the past but the present
Staring the 3 storey monument from the gate
I shoot all my questions one by one, to none but the One
Not many days have I got and nor any news of MNC’s
37 subjects down, 4 more to go, and have I retained any?
An Education loan to be repaid, and I still earn nothing
My mom says they started teaching me since I was one.
It’s been 20 years since then, and what have I achieved?
Majoring at Electronics, I search for job in IT
Excellent in managing, I endeavour for a technical profile
Leave the career aside, what else did I achieve here?
Never dated or hooked with any, played all saint to gain what
My name, religion and appearance scares half the world
Sticking to my principles, I am labelled as extremist
Despite following Manjunath and Bhagat
I couldn’t blow whistle against the passport officer
And the society has only one thing to ask
Beta job mila kya?
My exasperation, raging eyes and devilish mind commands
To let go the highly pressured magma in me
I silently go and sit in front of the gate protesting
Protesting for everything…
Not many of you know me except a meagre, for I am the One-Who-Must-Be-Not-Named.
Since I have bored you all by my devilish thoughts, let me enlighten you by the fragrances that sprout everywhere I go. I am one of the founding mothers of the crossroad of innovations, Kritanj. A dream come true for me and my fellow founding mothers, I miss it so much that I even own 60% of its shares, which can be seen if you go through the reveries shelved in my mind palace.
The outstretched two years of joblessness, loneliness and struggle that I have been through obliterated all the darkness in me, from it came the answers to all my questions, a path, a direction to move forward to. And despite of having a rupture in the career graph, today I am satisfied and enjoy working as an Assistant Manager in a small renewable energy firm. If you are about to leave the college and not yet placed, then this thought is apt for you:
“No great thing cometh suddenly into being, for not even a bunch of grapes can, or a
fig.” – Epictetus
This short article was published in my college magazine in the Alumni section; and I am shocked that I made it, well I am more surprised that I agreed to write and come up with something for the magazine and I actually took out time to write this and it turned to be worth it.